Thursday, February 10, 2011

These Are My Confessions

In the beginning, I threw myself into the role of police academy wife enthusiastically.  I got up early to make him breakfast, took over household chores, and did anything I could to make his life outside of the police academy as easy as possible.  I knew it was going to be stressful and I knew there wouldn’t be a lot of time for other things; I was managing that stress with patience and optimism.

Now that the second month has rolled around, JD seems to be comfortable in the academy routine.  He’s less physically and emotionally drained at the end of each day, and seems to enjoy academy life more.  In theory, that would make my life easier as well.  Let’s be honest, it’s not easy to face a miserable husband every evening.  But, I’m starting to wear down a bit.  The academy has completely taken over our lives, and I can’t believe we have nearly 5 months left.

As much as I try to be, I am not Superwife.  I can’t work full time, take care of the house and the dogs, spend practically no time with my husband, and be happy all the time.  We make time for a date night on the weekends, but other than that, there are very few moments that are spent as a couple, doing non-academy or non-household things.

I think we were both pretty well-informed about what academy life would be like, but it doesn’t make the emotional toll any easier.  It’s a strange feeling to have your spouse sitting next to you and still feel lonely.

Miss you babe.

1 comment:

  1. i wish i was there to hang out and take your mind off it while david is busy for the next few months. Hang in there, I'm thinking about you both! Miss you!